Where have I been? Once again slacking off and taking care of my daughter. Also moving but hopefully staying put this time. I've been demotivated almost the entire 2022. I don't know what it is but when I start the camera to shoot, what I think only took 3 minutes actually took 3 hours and I got really nothing from it. Well I guess I got some more experience with my location and lighting. Summer was probably the season where I felt like I could get a lot of work done but time also flew by really fast.

Once you hit that slump and aren't motivated anymore, step back and take a breath. Look around you and see what the friggan heck is going on. For me, I noticed my sleep is terrible. I haven't had a good nights sleep since Olivia was born. I'm constantly woken up either in the middle of the night or really early in the morning.

So what I do is I force myself by placing the camera on the tripod and setting it on a location where I'll shoot. Once I start clicking and rolling, I guess that's when I start working. I also stop myself if I see that I'm not having fun because the worst thing to do is make the thing I enjoy, an annoyance. I started it sure, but my heart and mind isn't there. So I take a day off and try again the next day. Sometimes motivated and sometimes not. Depends on the sleep I get.

I'm 35 years old as of this writing. I'll be 36 in 4 months. I still remember High School days like it was yesterday.

Crazy right. Yet again, it's been awhile. I forgot about updating this blog for awhile. No gigs but I have been taking self photos. Also practicing on filming.

2020 was my last post huh. Yea I've been busy. Unfortunately it wasn't because of gigs and such. Just taking care of my daughter and moving. We moved yet again! Hopefully this will be the final time.

I haven't been keeping my promise which is sad to say. Even though I have all my equipment to do all the things I SHOULD be doing, the motivation isn't there. My daughter is really exhausting me out. Woo wee. And I only have one child. I started trying to do some videos a few months ago but all she did was knock stuff over and cause a ruckus. I tried to do it when she takes naps but I found myself catching up on other things. I know that shouldn't be an excuse but again, the motivation wasn't there.

I was a bit depressed that I wasn't able to do any of the things I wanted. I still really miss going to auditions and landing gigs. Since moving to Portland, I've no idea how the acting scene is out here, or the modeling. In Chicago before Olivia was born, I at least experienced what it was like there and it was great work. Plenty of work and plenty of fantastic people.

There's no one to blame but myself as I always say. There really isn't. There's no excuse that I can't get the motivation to start doing it. I could say depression got in the way and/or just general busy-ness. I haven't even settled in out new place yet. As Olivia gets older, she gets more curious which is a great thing, but not so great for my camera equipment.

I'll follow my dreams again. I can't and wont give it up. It's been on hiatus for a very long time. Lots and lots of sacrifices have been made. I hope I can pick up steam again.

Been a few months now huh? This year is about to end. I really miss doing photoshoots and other gigs. Honestly there's no excuse, I should be doing it myself like I said I was going to, but guess what lol, I've been too lazy...

I haven't been sitting on my buttocks though. Still working out and taking care of my daughter. She's a handful and she can walk pretty good now! I have all I need to do films and such. I'm planning on doing some stock footage. I started a little bit but haven't edited anything yet.

Before this year ends, I will do a self photoshoot. You heard from me here! I can only really do it when my daughter goes to nap nap world. Then I have 30 min to 1 hour time limit. That doesn't mean I'll post it up here haha. Just means I'll do it and eventually post it on here.

This brings me back to when I lived in LA and had an audition where I sat next to another Asian guy. Not going to lie, he was tall and handsome. I probably looked like some kid. But he said he wanted to get back into acting and had to take a long hiatus because he has kids. 4 of them! He said to me, he wanted his life back. I only have one kid but I can understand how much work it is to take care of one, let alone 4 kids.

She's 7 months now! Almost 8. She's big and strong and talks a lot. Things like gabooo, and ayyyyyyyyy.

She takes so much of my time haha.

But I went to the offix website and saw all the videos and stills that I did back in Chicago.

https://offix-usa.com/

Of course as of this writing, who knows if they'll change anything like refresh the website with new actors but hey I'm happy it's on there haha.

That's right! I moved to Portland Oregon. It's very pretty here. Driving around here is pretty scenic as well. Trees everywhere.

My kid is now 6 months old. It's been that long since I've done any acting or modeling. Moving took a lot out of my time as well but that's to be expected. I'm in a better place in terms of housing and neighborhood. Not that the place in Chicago I lived in was bad, but it was a lot older in terms of appliances, doors, floors, etc. This place I'm in now feels like a house instead of an apartment. I no longer have to walk up 3 flights of stairs.

It's still very crazy out there. Things ARE slowly opening up for business. I haven't really checked out what's out there in terms of work for Portland Oregon. I'll probably dabble a little bit in seeing whats out there. Until then, more unpacking and more driving around Portland.

Everyone is in Quarantine, or protesting, or rioting. Jobs are slow, people have no work or lost their jobs because of the rioting. As of this writing, it's a sad time.

When times are good again and things are back to normal, I wish all of you the best of the best in work and life.

I'll be moving in July of 2020. Can't say where yet. Hopefully things quiet down and work picks up.

My future plans are making my own short films. As you know I have a kid now so I guess I'm still on hiatus in terms of gigs and stuff.

Stay safe out there.

It was all on good terms! I decided to go freelance. Why? Well, my daughter that's why. In a week or so, my wife goes back to work. Someone has to stay home and take care of her, and that would be me. No family here to watch over if I do get auditions and I can't just pay someone a day before to take care of her. If you're not familiar with how auditions work, most of the time, if not all the time, you get told about an audition a day before it happens. I can't stay with BMG because I would be very unreliable as an actor/model if I keep telling them I can't go to an audition they try to send me out on.

I love BMG. They were amazing to work with. They helped me a lot when I moved here to Chicago. I always got paid in a decent amount of time, they helped put me out there, I got more auditions here than I did living in LA. I got many more gigs with them as well. #bmgfamily will always live on in me.

It's back to just me. I will still apply for parts since I love what I do but, I'll have to be picky now. Only applying for things that fit my schedule or in a rare free time.

I'll make sure to work on my photography and film while I'm at home. This might be a new opportunity to start something on the side but still in the same business.

Only if I get the chance to do it lol. I had an audition today. One of those quick ones which I really love.

It's Valentines day and I had an audition. I love it.