This week has been an uphill battle for me because of the fact that I'll be leaving my job at Astrogaming where I have been for almost 6 years. I absolutely love this place and job. I wake up every morning happy to go to work. Literally. This week, fear got the best of me. I was afraid of losing this job and going into the unknown that is LA. The new sights, smells, and environment which is out of my comfort zone.

Then it hit me. In order to reach your goal, you have to step out of that comfort zone and grab on to the mystery that awaits us in life. Through the thick smog, the filthy trenches, the exploding eel, shark laser invested water, the booger eating monster that spits at you and fire breathing Llama, there awaits an opportunity with free massages. Even if that opportunity takes a different course, you take another course and sneak from behind and give it an arm lock.

Fear.......... you almost got me this week. I almost trembled in my shoes, almost had a brownie party in my pants, almost shook the wheels off my chair. I almost lost to you fear....almost... but that's not me. I am someone who wont ever lose to fear. I'm coming for you. This time, full force. Failure is an experience everyone will have to learn once in their life and from there, you build upon that and possibly fail better.

I needed a little pep talk to myself.

I had another photoshoot with photojojo today. I love working with them. It's always fun working with Margo the photographer. She'll be leaving photojojo soon too :(. Things are changing very quickly! I'm leaving Astrogaming, Margo is leaving Photojojo and someone got laid off from my work place too. I won't say anymore about that haha.

As Margo and I were walking around the block, Betabrand is also on the same block. It's so nice to be known because as we were walking, the people working at Betabrand were walking out getting lunch and saw me and just said whats up Chris and all that stuff. I will miss that as well. I feel like I'm known down there, well in that block anyways haha. Hopefully I'll shoot with them one more time before I leave on July 5th.

Change is scary. Either good or bad, change must happen to progress. I wont lie, when my Fiance told me she was going to LA for her residency, I knew I had to give up my job at Astrogaming to go down there. I love my job. It's the best job I've ever had. It wasn't just a job, it was a career. Although my abilities there weren't fully utilized, I was thinking about switching to another department or at least advance in education and move higher in the engineering department. Now that I'm leaving, the bright side of things would be that I'll have another chance of finding out who i really am. LA is a big market for actors and models. I AM an aspiring actor/model so this could be the chance and change that is meant for me. We'll see. Even as I try to see the good side of things, it's still scary.


I rather fail trying than not trying at all.

Had a fun commercial shoot with Napa Valley Casino today. Early in the morning at 5:30am. I didn't mind the drive because there was no traffic. Yay! The other actors/models there were from the same agency so that's always super cool to work with people in the same agency. Why? Because to me, it feels like that's my gang, my team. It just felt cool ok. It's not the first time this happened. It happened only a handful of times where I work with the same models/actors from the same agency. Its pretty much a guild. Coooool.

They were really nice and chill. Maybe because it's early in the morning and no one had crazy energy yet. I met Kristine Fong. I worked with her a yahoo commercial about 4 years back. She remembered that shoot and and she remembered me, after I told her about that shoot haha. She said I looked familiar then she remembered me. It was a great morning. Once I get the photos from the person who took it, ill post it up.

I'm a bit late on this post but I had a photoshoot with Susan Holstein 2 weeks ago. She's really good. We did some different things this time. Using some smoke and whatnot. Shes got a really cute black cat that loves her a lot haha.

Her photo studio is actually her living studio so its very open and spacie.

I had an engagement photoshoot with my Fiance Isabel on Sunday. Guess who the photographer was. None other than Alexandria Huff! She's just too cool. I really owe her a lot. She's sooo good and skilled. I really do owe her a lot. My Fiance is a big fan of her work as well.

Alex you're number 1 to me!

I'm also on 500px thanks to Alex!

http://iso.500px.com/warriors-creative-portrait-tutorial/