My agent submitted me for a role and I got an audition. I practiced my lines, I memorized it with at least 2 ways of saying each line. I go to the audition today and I when I walk into the room, the vibe changed. I felt power. I felt the presence of people who knew exactly what they were looking for and what they expect from an actor. And in case you didn't already know, I wasn't in power here, it was the two casting directors.

They were experienced in the industry and it shows. They were efficient and effective. All the talent that walked into that room walked out within 30 seconds. Literally it was less than a minute. It was, using the word again, literally the fastest audition I've ever been into. Is that bad? Not at all, but you better bring your memorizing A game to the table. 

That being said, I apparently brought my C- game. I wasn't supposed to look at my script but I did just a little. They saw me nervous because I couldn't remember the 2nd part of the lines so they had me say it again. 2nd CHANCE! DON'T F IT UP. I F it up... This time I said the 2nd and 3rd lines a little wrong. I felt like such a amateur in the entertainment world. I've studied and memorized many lines in my life but why did this happen now? Why today and why in front of these 2? These 2 showed an oozing aura of elite status. I was the peasant.

After I left the room and walked to my car, I kept thinking to myself, those are the people I want to impress. I want to impress those two casting directors one day as well as ALL the casting directors. This learning experience got me even more pumped, amped up, and full of testosterone. I will impress someone someday. I want to leave a spectacular impression when I leave a room.

Today however was not that day. I will go back home and eat a hot dog and then workout. Because life doesn't stop even after failures. It just keeps going just as you should.




Also, I ran into Dat. I worked with him as a background in a industrial shoot awhile back. I glanced at him and I was like hmmm, that guy looks familiar. After a few minutes of sitting next to each other, we talked and then he was the one who brought up that we worked together and pretty much everything clicked haha. GOOD LUCK DAT. I hope I spelled your name right or even got your name right lol. If you're reading this, today's audition went by fast didn't it. See you again.

What a great two days. First day, (technically the 2nd day since there was a shoot the day before mine) I was on set for 13 hours. I was pretty hungry near the end and my feet started to hurt haha. The usual. I wish I brought more snacks like the gummies.

The talent was amazing. Everyone was superb and I got to meet a lot of people. Shout out to Carol, Leo, Jay, Huey, Mike, Matt, Meg, Tyler, Mariam, Patrick, Kari, and please excuse me for the other female talent because I don't think I ever caught your name. Sorry! If I missed any of the talent, you're in the shout out too! Good luck with school for the talent that was going to school for their goals like Jay in Film/Directing.

And I can't forget the crew members who make this happen on a day to day basis. I'm talking about the make up, wardrobe, PA1, PA2, Directors, Bosses, coordinators and all the good people who make things go smoothly.

The 3rd day Carol was back! I knew I was going to be with someone from the previous shoot but I didn't know who until I saw the email the night before and it was Carol. You know she's pretty bad ass. Great double personality. (inside joke) We were the principles as well for the 3rd days shoot. I think our legs got buffer because we walked up and down the stairs a lot. I was sweating. It was a shorter day from 8am to around early noon so that was a nice break.

Carols a fantastic actress and singer. I was on her website, listening to her music. It's actually the type of ambient music that I enjoy if I was studying or playing a game. Check her out www.whiteblu5h.com

Good luck Carol! I hope you make millions of dollars in that you know what we talked about in the van haha.

And thank you again for the cast and crew and for choosing me to play one of the principles. Roles like this are tough to get so you can see that I'm very excited and appreciative that I was chosen. 

Well, I GOT THE PART!!!

Yipppie! This means a lot to me. I just hope everything goes well. I wont say what my role is and I wont say for what but I'll be sure to take photos of me and the cast during the shoot. Not of the actual shoot because I'm not allowed haha.

I once had a principle role that I was booked years ago. It turned out they decided to scrap the project and that made me feel if it was actually scraped or did they choose someone else even though I was booked... I don't want to jinx myself.

Am I the principle for this project.... maybe hehe.

I didn't get to see David for this callback but I did see another person I auditioned with previously. Her name is Jin. Awesome person. I wish the best for her. I hope I didn't seem too cold to her today because I couldn't have a conversation her. There was a person sitting in between us and I didn't want to talk over that person because it's awkward for the person sitting in between.

Sorry Jin! I did want to talk with you! Hopefully we get to work together in the future.

Guess who I saw at the audition. YUP my home boi David. Worked with him many times now. He's even got the same audition as me tomorrow. Oh yea I have an audition tomorrow haha. Except he'll be at a later time and I'll be at an earlier time. I love me some of them early times.

Can't say what it is but it was quick. Just the way I like it. It was kinda far too from where I live but it's worth it if I get the part. "IF" I get the part right haha.

If not, at least I went to Five Below and bought somethings. I really like that store. My favorite store in all of Illinois. Don't judge me.

Great shoot today with Schumacher Electric. It was a two day shoot but each day was really quick. 2 hours max. It was fun and I met a lot of great actors and actresses. I also worked with someone I previously worked with. David Je. He's my homie now haha. It's like the 6th time I've worked with him. Great guy as well as the other cast and crew.

I hope to see and work with all of you guys and gals again!

That's how I felt today. I can't say I did horribly, but I can't say I did too great either.

I was giving a few tries which I'm extremely grateful, not because it was SO bad that the casting director made me do it again, but since the script was short, the director gave a couple of tries. I'm sure other people auditioning as well got a few tries.

Anyways from all the tries, each time was a bit different. Different in an inconsistent bad way... at least that's how I felt. One try I would pronounce something wrong, the next try I would botch up a sentence but pronounced it well, and another try where I really did put all my effort in, only to realize, I wasn't looking at the camera when I should have. I said everything and did everything great except for the looking at the camera which is in fact an important feature of this particular script and audition. I fix one thing, only to mess up another. I fix 2 things, only to mess up another.

At the end of the day, this just builds confidence. As it should in people who feel discouraged. Some people really beat themselves up for this. Of course I felt bad after I left the audition thinking to myself, DANG. I can't be I just did that, but I need to soldier on and learn from the mistakes that I made.

One previous mistake I made in an audition awhile back was that I was talking too fast. For this audition, I did start off talking fast but then remembered to slow it down. A lesson learned and applied to my life as in actor.

For this audition, I re-learned to "breathe". INHALE AND EXHALE! Now onward to another audition but this time, no script.

Excited for that of course. This week alone is busy with things besides auditions. Which is good. Keeps me on my toes.

Good times with good actors and actresses for the WaterO photo shoot. One of the few last gigs I shot before leaving to Chicago. I hope all is well with them.