I haven't been keeping my promise which is sad to say. Even though I have all my equipment to do all the things I SHOULD be doing, the motivation isn't there. My daughter is really exhausting me out. Woo wee. And I only have one child. I started trying to do some videos a few months ago but all she did was knock stuff over and cause a ruckus. I tried to do it when she takes naps but I found myself catching up on other things. I know that shouldn't be an excuse but again, the motivation wasn't there.
I was a bit depressed that I wasn't able to do any of the things I wanted. I still really miss going to auditions and landing gigs. Since moving to Portland, I've no idea how the acting scene is out here, or the modeling. In Chicago before Olivia was born, I at least experienced what it was like there and it was great work. Plenty of work and plenty of fantastic people.
There's no one to blame but myself as I always say. There really isn't. There's no excuse that I can't get the motivation to start doing it. I could say depression got in the way and/or just general busy-ness. I haven't even settled in out new place yet. As Olivia gets older, she gets more curious which is a great thing, but not so great for my camera equipment.
I'll follow my dreams again. I can't and wont give it up. It's been on hiatus for a very long time. Lots and lots of sacrifices have been made. I hope I can pick up steam again.